I haven’t self harmed in god knows how long (I havent been keeping track) and now its all I can think about. Its all ive been able to think about for weeks. I dont know how much longer I can keep resisting..
The fact that I’ve been trying for months to get a full time job and seem to be getting nowhere is actually making me depressed. Well, more depressed than usual but still. Why the fuck do I even bother?
“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.”—Hugh Laurie (via larmoyante)
talking to people who have good relationships with their dad is so surreal like, what’s that like? what did you do???? how come he doesn’t think your a failure?????? how can you just “get on with” and “like” your farther????????? how???
All i can see on Facebook is all these people saying cute pictures whilst they’re out doing things with their boyfriends/girlfriends.. Meanwhile im sitting alone in my boyfriends flat after im sure he’s gave me a mild concussion, slightly bruised round my right eye, took my money and is away to the pub. Welcome to my life.
U know how in winter it gets so cold and u think u will never be hot again and in summer it gets so hot u think u will never be cold again I think that is how it is with ur feelings like when u r sad u think u will never be happy and when u r happy u think u will never be sad. But u will be hot again and u will be cold again and u will be sad again but most of all u will be happy again
This made me sad because i cant remember a time that i felt so happy that i thought id never be sad again…